Happy Almost Thanksgiving!
- Jen
- Nov 22, 2017
- 3 min read
Happy almost thanksgiving! I’ll be busy tomorrow with family, friends and even at the parade so I️ decided to share this on the eve! A lot of exciting things have been happening like the PCOS walk is coming to NY this year! I️m thrilled and can’t wait to be a part of it. Once we have more info I will send it out through my personal social media platforms.
So there are millions of things I️m thankful for to name a few:
-Friends
-Family
-That I️ finally love school ( college is amazing)
-People who have inspired me
-People who have stuck by me
-My doctors
But most importantly I️m thankful I learned to love myself. It was a battle I''m telling you, it wasn’t easy. I don’t have a clue of how I got here but man I️ did. I️ fought, I️ fell but I️ got back up again. The hardest part was wiping off the mud to finally see beauty within. I suffered silently because I didn't want people to think I wanted attention and to be brutally honesty I was scared to admit anything to anyone. I had family members in the dark for a while until I was ready to say what was going on. I am not someone who likes to talk about my struggles or my failures. It's not in my nature but this opened my eyes to see maybe my "failures" or "struggles" could help someone else. I joined support groups and would every so often post to fellow members and my comments would be very positive. But I was never ready to put myself out there till now. Like you see me on my instagram I look like a normal human I always did even when I would cry every morning to myself in the mirror because I hated myself. I wanted people to see there is this piece of me that knows how much life can suck. I lived it for a while but then I was like this bitch PCOS, needs to move out of my way and get over itself. I actually wrote my college essay on my experience with PCOS, I will share the essay one day. I took PCOS and wrote about it as a roller coaster ride I was placed on. I had an old teacher read it for me mind you I was in 12th grade and a 6th and 8th grade teacher of mine read over my work, this sacred piece of me. I'll never forget the moment one of them said," And why are you keeping this story to yourself? You are amazing this story moved me and it put tears in my eyes." I looked laughed and said, Well Miss it's hard." Until today I listened to her and well this story is being shared slowly. It is something that I'm ready to let out. It's hard to share such a sacred piece of you, but I mean I reached success in the end which if you ask me has been the best reward life has given me so far! So among the millions of people in my life I have been blessed with to be exact 89 who stuck by me and have lifted me up during this crazy journey I am most thankful for finally loving the girl who stands in the mirror right before my eyes everyday instead of the one I would have longed to be. I shout out my family,one of my old science teachers from middle school who to this day only lifts me up and supports everything I have become and will and lastly my closest of friends. It means the world to me and its not just today I saw my old science teacher and reminded her Im thankful for her but its everyday. Its not just tomorrow I see/ text my family and friends I' thankful for you but its everyday. It's not just tomorrow I''ll stand in the mirror and say," I'm thankful for you, I love you, you are beautiful", but that'd everyday in my mirror. I have so many blessings and things to be thankful for but this battle with PCOS has helped me love me and thats something I'm more than just a little thankful for.
Thats what I am thankful for in 2017 but most importantly today remember to be thankful for you too. Love all your curves and all your edges and perfect imperfections. Happy Thanksgiving tomorrow and don't get too stuffed with all the delicious food on your table! My favorite is the pumpkin pie.
Till next time,
Jen
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